Dear Mrsatroxi,

Have you ever been disappointed by someone in your life?

I’m not talking about the little, everyday disappointments we all do to each other just because we are breathing. (I KNOW, DAD, I’M SORRY.) I’m talking about the big, nasty, hit you in the gut, this person is nothing like I thought disappointment.

It’s a uniquely bad feeling, isn’t it?

There’s sadness and anger and feeling like a fool. Feeling like you’ve been treated like a fool. I think the more important the person to your life, the more sadness predominates. The less personal, the more pissed.

I’m at pissed.

I’ve decided to drop everything and move to Hollywood.

Why?

I’ve just had one of the crappiest weeks of my life. My poor dog got sick and had to be put down, I found out that a very dear friend is dying of cancer, work has been terrible and all I’ve really wanted to do is stay in bed and feel sorry for myself.

At work patients have been telling me how I’m never in a bad mood, and I’m always so happy and how nice it is to see somebody without problems and stress in their life.

Yeah.

I must be one hell of an actress.

We had to put our doggie Charley to sleep yesterday.