I Don’t Know. 
Tuesday, January 30th, 2007
Today was not the best day I have ever had.
Today was my second meeting with the therapist. And I’m not sure it went very well. (That probably says a lot about my mental state. You’d think I ought to know the difference between a bad session and a good one, but I don’t.)
I do know that it upset me.
I don’t know what to do now. I don’t know if I should go back to this person. I don’t know if what she said to me is normal, good therapy. I don’t know if the reason I’m upset is because she is right, or if I’m upset that she could be so off base.
I’m shaken and confused and not hopeful, which makes me sad. I was hoping hope would come back.
I don’t know if this is a case of no good deed going unpunished, or if I am simply not ready for all of this.
Or maybe it’s just because I’ve been sick, and I’m blowing things out of porportion.
Am I supposed to feel lost?
Ug.
After reading all of that, ya’ll deserve a silly cat picture.
